Panic has switched from baby to house, money, work ... The long list of things we have to get to be ready for this little one. So there's all that weighing on me plus I've been crampy and tired. Not a great combo.
Saturday -
Nearly burst into tears because Cory listed off a bunch of things he still needed to do before going fishing. Mainly it was a list of things I can't do or have. So I yelled, "Fine. Just go! I can't have any of that!" He got a little giggle out of my outburst but had no idea I was fighting tears as he walked out the door. It was so stupid because I didn't even want any of that that day anyway...
Later while fishing, I couldn't tell if I wanted to cry or scream while Cory messed with his boat motor before finding us a spot to start fishing.
Don't get me started on how my first pee break went.
Then while we were fishing, he was lifting his motor up and dropping it down over and over and over. It makes me horribly mad even thinking about it right now. He had to of done it around 20 times. It made the worse noise and I hated every second of it!
I'm sure there were more, but that's all I can remember from Saturday.
Sunday -
Ended up in a fight because Cory didn't want to go house hunting and I made him go anyway. Should have known it was going to end in disaster. We got to look at one house before everything blew up. He was crabby which made me crabby. There was yelling. The use of the word spaz. Which I took far more personal than usual. Either way it ended with my crying and not speaking to him the rest of the day. He apologized this morning.
I went on to watch three movies. Two of which made me cry, 'Home' and 'Brother Bear', multiple times. It was at that point I realized how wacked my emotions really were.
Just a fabulous first weekend of pregnancy...
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